Housemanship

Now, i am the neonate in my carrier. Luckily i was posted to MIri, by God grace that life is far better than those in other hospital. I would say, Miri Hospital is the best hospital of all. Where else can have a call with 8 hours sleep?Where else can have 2 houseman covering the same ward?Life is getting better once the day of life increase.
I remember the early days when i was in OnG. I was blurred for almost everything, the most scariest is the CTG. I do not have a clue how to manage a bad CTG. It make me really frustrated and scared.
I regreted for one incident during my first call. Whether directly or indirectly, a pregnant lady who is under my care delivered a flat baby and later confirmed to have HIE stage 3. The baby was discharge from hospital with NG tube in situ. I truely regret for that incident. I depressed for 1 month and become workalcoholic in that month time.
All my friends are very supportive. By looking at my labile mood, even the Mo who scolded me on that time apologise that she should not being so harsh ans inconsiderate. One or two of my friend bring me out for liquor, i remember, i ordered a cocktail, name, sex in the beach!!I was drunk and just let the cat out.
It proved that my lecturer,a phychologist was true, i was a neurotic person. I might go insane and breakdown if I do not control my emotional well.
After waht i have said and done, everything has passed. Christmas has passed as well and I do enjoy having chicken chop alone. Life is better now but not to the best which I look forward for it in new year