A lucky guy I am

As the date travel to New Zealand draw nearer, my heart is trembling with excitement. It is a one in a life time exploration for not only the nature but also inner self, soul and God. 

Sad to say, traveling overseas mean I gonna separate with my family, close friends, and colleague for three months periods. People might say why I am so pessimistic as the separation is just for short period of 3 months, but I think vice versa. There is so many possibility and uncertainty in life that I do not want to miss any chance to say goodbye.

The chance to meet u is like one in a million. I still remember, it was a Wednesday, I drove all the way to find you after work. The road trip was not easy as my sense of direction is just hopeless. To make the matter worse, my phone battery surrender first before I could find your location. Then, just based on the confusing signboard and abit of gut feeling, I finally reached hospital. 

I have decided to meet you after I heard that "someone" like the song. Right then, frankly I still have a glimpse of hope that I could meet and catch up with the "someone". It does not turn out as what i initially planned but surprisingly the fruit of the day is better.

Undoubtedly, the first meeting was abit uneasy and awkward but meeting you isn't a bad idea at all. I am happy that after the meet up our friendship do grow and blossom. 

It is hilarious to rethink of our common topic which is always related to the "somebody". Sometimes i like to see you jealous of me. But mostly you won at the conversation as you know how to manipulate my emotion which make me angry sometimes. You maybe not humorous, you are neither sensitive, nor persuasive. But you are always around when i needed someone most. You helped me to overcome my depression. Now that I have let go the rocks on my shoulder all partly because of your help. You are always available to kill my boredom, with that, I think you are superior than the one.

Another new year is around the corner. Year in and year out, the times fly. "It is funny how someone who was just a stranger last year, can mean so much to you now. It is terrible someone who meant so much to you last year, can be just a stranger now. It is amazing what a year can do."  

After all of what has been said, I just feel that I am a lucky one by God grace.

LIbra: the Thinker

Courage

"Sometimes we just have to let things go"

with love

sweet quote

"I'M SORRY.
Sometimes, I get jealous thinking that someone else
    could make you happier than i could.
I guess it's my insecurities acting up,
    because i know I'm not the prettiest, smartest,
or most fun and exciting.

But, I do know that no matter
     how hard and long you look;
You'll never find somebody that loves you like I do.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c6wmN2Az8c8

Today i cried after heard that you like this song. Does the lyric mean for me or not? I know, you are not.

I could not hold back my tears from welling. Yes, i admit that i have made gross mistake but why cant you forgive me? Have you forgetten the promise u made? You said, you will cherish our friendship forever...

Is it so hard to friend with me?

 

Love yourself

Love yourself, 

Confession

Too bad of me being innocence and childish. Never thought that friend or foe is indeed defined by thin line. You will get hurt and difficult to heal. From a true friend has become a stranger. Do not know would miracle bring us together again.

Thanks to an cunning outsider that rock our friendship and bring us to a test. The test that drove us apart. So easily, so fragile. Misunderstanding is so great that wouldn’t allowed me to explain. Friendship that used to be so strong but now has been shattered.  

My faith toward God has grew stronger, as I know Him would never abandon us. He always there for me each time I fall. Faith that keep life and hope going.

Starry starry night,
and i dont want to sleep,
feel that the night is long,
long enough for me to dream.

Breeze air brush my face,
how i wish the time could  freeze
so that i could cherish the moment
me thou forever long

now i understand,
earth has never standstill,
now i am back to me myself,
cold and loneliness filled the air.

reflection

Adieu, 2014

In car, a question my friend threw to me: 

"What was the happiest thing i treasured in 2013?"

Silence for minutes was finally break

I answered in blush

Surely it was meeting you

Thou was never early for dinner  

Slowly, waiting in car has been my routine
Time spent with thou was never too long
Though your grumble was never end
Been tried my best to comfort thou
likewise thou cheer my call with starbuck coffee

Sweet memory never is forgotten
honey sweet that one could not resist

though sometimes might be sour and uneasy

but rainbow triumphed over each cloud
Time has blossom our brotherhood

Every good thing has an end

Like the snow flake melt on the spring of first sun ray

Now that you are leaving

But your laughter and care is forever carved in my heart

Love