Love for my valentine...

Love is patient and kind,
It is not jealous or conceited or proud,
Love is not ill-mannered or selfish or irritable
Love does not keep a record of wrongs
Love is not happy with evils, but is happy with the truth.
Love never gives up,
and its faith, hope, and patience never fail

(1Corinthians 13.4-7)
P/s: to all who love....

Politic watch....

What is the role of being the people representative?And, what does a country actually mean?
Let's back to the basic. A country exist by a group of people who own the same ideation, dream and goal to achieve. Therefore, together hand in hand in the same bot, they build, develop, mantain, and enjoy the achivement in the country. A group of people fight for their "country" independence because they felt that the "foreign" invaders are not originate from the locality. Theoretically, geography is the main determinant for the people nationality. By then, because of lacking mass media and communication in the past, the country is not influence from out forces. However, in this era of globalization and migration, the "country" definition has altered....
As time went by, the human learn to protect their right, ownerships and pride by making the rules and regulations. The rules are made and modify by the people representative at times to times to adapt the circumstances changes. As the idea of borderless world spread, the security and ownership of each country has been threatened seriously. The number of enemy has become larger and more alarming. The competition has become intense among country in the field of economy, politic, social, cultural, technology...etc. The presence of such real competition mold the human in this world to lost tract and addicted to the original means of survival. And, the sense proud and pride upon their ownership propagate as the competition persist.
Therefore, human has adopted the behaviour of jealousy, cunning, self protected, abusive, deceitful, scoundrel, oppressive...etc. The conservative concept of sharing of idea, dream and goal has decayed slowly by generation to generation.
As a result, is the "country" still persist? Are people representatives still needed? Why give the idiot the chances to corrupt and mismanage our property!!!We, should stand up, once and for all, reject all the nuisance and "joker". ---"people voice"

Human searching

How coincident and ironic that today I went to few popular places in Ipoh to search for a young girl who deemed to has ran away from house. Here start the cat and mouse chasing game between a over anxious mother and defiant daughter. I felt pity for both of them as it was another miscommunication problem. And, to make the thing worse, the girl is suffered from deafness and muteness. Unfortunately, she is still out of sight and contact.
The feeling of searching for a lost soul could be so distressing and hopelessness.

Never think that i was wrong

It is just happened to read a blog at this wee hours that make me realised what i had done was totally wrong. I never ever stand in her shoe and use my bloody brain to think twice before i act. i am ready to apologise deep from my heart that i had done it wrong and unattentively. Thanks God that giving me the chance to know you better by reading your blog. Sorry.....i would repay my debt somewhere, somewhat and somehow....

Neurotic...

Am i already had grown up as an adult or still trapped in the world of teenager?Still, I am confusing for my own indeterminate personality and trait. My age and physical appearance is not growing on par with the mind, thought and emotion. I once naively believe that i am already an adult who own the ability to judge, process sensory input and present myself wisely and "maturely".
Is the adult thinking signify a mature man or the mature thinking signify an adult man?
If a person who is neurotic and act accordingly with what his heart and gut voices, is he belong to the adulthood?It sounds ridiculous and nuisance that how can a person possibly controlled by the voices of emotion and "6th" sense. Is his future and dream to be an adult is dim?
The mind and heart are the main players in the game. I am sure that stony hard, cruel and conscete hearted person would not have the same dilemma. That's mean, the more conscious the person is to the power of mind, he will eventually dig his own grave and become more neurotic and indeterminate.
The question now is how to migrate from the neurotic and darker inner-built dungeon of himself to the open ground where he is able to be like normal ordinary persons. Are we, human are obliged to obey the law of nature where "maturing" is the path we must step foot on but conversely we are born with neurotism initially?If this could be done, what else the human mind could do?

"Psychology fever"

To be sincere, I am in the state of dilemma between love and hatred for psychology posting. I love psychology field because it is not simply sains and facts that can be proved scientifically but now we are dealing with human mind and behaviour. It is something very new yet very familiar. It is the learning of our own self mind and behaviour that started to build since young. It is the learned behaviour and thinking that map the person out. The first contact and exposure do played vital role. We look at the factors why family upbringing is important and so on. Indeed, the true has told us that the family do influence the children and later on the adult and until death, from womb to tomb. For example, most of schizoprenia patient has family broke up.

And at the same time, I managed to take this opputunity discover the God's wonderful creations. This posting remind me of the doubt that seeded in my thought long ago. That what does the "seed of wisdom" stated in the Bible really mean? And why does the God prohibit Adam and Eve from having it. In this current era, the wisdom is the key where development and civilisation could happen from one stage progressing to another. Thereby, how could God prohibit Adam and Eve from discovery new thing and knowledge.

Or perhaps, there is another meaning behind for "seed of wisdom". I am not dare to challenge it. But, some people would translate it as the sexual practice which i am not so agree with. I think sexual practice is a very holy "ritual" that keep the generation going. However, we human being are abusing sexual practice. People are thinking of other method to increase the sexual pleasure which is actually not the true gift from God. Therefore, more problems are arised when the concern is deviated from true meaning of sexual practice.

After i explore the mind of schizoprenia patient, i could sense that many things in this world are not discovered yet. We, human being are losing tract for the discovery of true meaning of "wisdom". Do we really need to invent so many technology and theory???Can we go back to the place where we belong??

Knowing her...

Knowing someone is hard for me. I do not know why it could be like this. Maybe i have be socially isolation for so many years and lead to inattentiveness and less alertness. Or, maybe this is the same old excuse that i kept giving to myself for not improving myself.
Today, when she ask me how far i have known her. I hardly come out a word. My brain become blank and could not think out a thing to tell her. All i can remember is the time i spend with her. That's all and that's it. Of course, i can not deny that, i have feeling for her as well when refreshing the good memory. But i do not want to disclose it to her as it is very disappointing for her.
I need to become more observant and caring in order not to meet the no return route or it is too late.