sweet quote

"I'M SORRY.
Sometimes, I get jealous thinking that someone else
    could make you happier than i could.
I guess it's my insecurities acting up,
    because i know I'm not the prettiest, smartest,
or most fun and exciting.

But, I do know that no matter
     how hard and long you look;
You'll never find somebody that loves you like I do.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c6wmN2Az8c8

Today i cried after heard that you like this song. Does the lyric mean for me or not? I know, you are not.

I could not hold back my tears from welling. Yes, i admit that i have made gross mistake but why cant you forgive me? Have you forgetten the promise u made? You said, you will cherish our friendship forever...

Is it so hard to friend with me?

 

Love yourself

Love yourself, 

Confession

Too bad of me being innocence and childish. Never thought that friend or foe is indeed defined by thin line. You will get hurt and difficult to heal. From a true friend has become a stranger. Do not know would miracle bring us together again.

Thanks to an cunning outsider that rock our friendship and bring us to a test. The test that drove us apart. So easily, so fragile. Misunderstanding is so great that wouldn’t allowed me to explain. Friendship that used to be so strong but now has been shattered.  

My faith toward God has grew stronger, as I know Him would never abandon us. He always there for me each time I fall. Faith that keep life and hope going.

Starry starry night,
and i dont want to sleep,
feel that the night is long,
long enough for me to dream.

Breeze air brush my face,
how i wish the time could  freeze
so that i could cherish the moment
me thou forever long

now i understand,
earth has never standstill,
now i am back to me myself,
cold and loneliness filled the air.

reflection

Adieu, 2014

In car, a question my friend threw to me: 

"What was the happiest thing i treasured in 2013?"

Silence for minutes was finally break

I answered in blush

Surely it was meeting you

Thou was never early for dinner  

Slowly, waiting in car has been my routine
Time spent with thou was never too long
Though your grumble was never end
Been tried my best to comfort thou
likewise thou cheer my call with starbuck coffee

Sweet memory never is forgotten
honey sweet that one could not resist

though sometimes might be sour and uneasy

but rainbow triumphed over each cloud
Time has blossom our brotherhood

Every good thing has an end

Like the snow flake melt on the spring of first sun ray

Now that you are leaving

But your laughter and care is forever carved in my heart

Love

PRU 13 in Taiping (medical line)

Tonight was the 14th of May 2013, just a couple of days after the most heated general election 13 held on 5th of May. I was oncalled yesterday, the 13th of May which it turned out to be one of the worst call ever in Hospital Taiping.

I would like to cheers to all Malaysian that another peaceful May 13 has passed. Let the incident of 13th May 1969 became history and never again resurface. It has again proved that the leader in this era is more long sighted and peace seeking. Malaysia will proper if this tide to be continued.

There are multiple factors attributed to the civil riot. In history, the main excuse to blame for is the disparity of economy class among the races in Malaysia. People deemed that certain ethnic has the monopoly in business and left the other ethnic living in hardcore poor. And, people think that this group of people do not have the right to be prosper in the sense of economy. In the eyes of jealousy and hatred, the logic mind is temporary blinded and people act according to emotion. It is an act of desperation rather than anger.

Alright let's come back to the current development in Malaysia, overall the standard of living has been improved and upgraded over these years. Majority of people has afford to live surpass the basic living requirement especially in town area. People nowadays are chasing for pleasure and enjoyable activity like travelling which of course contributed by AirAsia, everybody can fly. The aim of living now has shifted from "eat to live" to "live to eat". This is especially true in Malaysia because of variety of food from different ethnicity and also imported from other country. It is foolproof by the evidence of mushrooming restaurant and food outlet in Malaysia including French cuisine and wine.

The sentiment of riots due to economy disparity is no longer valid. After so many years, we Malaysian has went through ups and downs together and already formed a big family under a roof. Do not let the skin colour separate us from each other as we has grown up from the same land, same school, same playground and we sing the same national anthem and celebrate the victory of Dato Lee Chong Wei..etc. We might have our own strength and weaknesses, and own cultural and believes, but the ultimate aim is to live harmonious and peaceful among each other.We should be thankful for whatever blessing we have, and hold hand in hand to face numerous obstacles ahead of us.

The real threat to us is not our skin colour, but the corruptions, criminal, foreign economy manipulation, global warming, natural disaster( just to name afew)...Last but not least, I am proud to be a Malaysian.